by Old State

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juliastar I love this album so much. I have listened to it probably over 50 times since it was given to me at metal gear. My favorite song has changed several times since I first heard it and all four tracks have held the honor at one point or another. This album is my number 1 release of 2017. I hope for a full length release in 2018. Favorite track: Mess.
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Was there something there to keep us going? Or was it something to do with my pride? Don't ask us any questions when there's no answers. Only places we can hide. Where do we go when there isn't a place to sleep? How do we talk when we're too choked up to speak? There's nothing chemical to lift this dream. Only two poked holes to ensure that I can breathe. There’s nowhere left to go. There's nowhere left to run. I'll take the chance I'll hide to save my skin I heard a quarrel from a house two blocks from here. They look to walls to hear what truth has been said. If it's any of your concern, the brick and mortar's lying to get laid again. There's a problem when the match is set to strike, To a house that is doused in gasoline. If it's any of your concern, there's a fire and it's burning everything in sight.
Oh, so urgent to apologize Just for being who you are and who you're not And who you're not supposed to be Who you're man enough to be Is there something here worth longing for? Is this hunger just a void? Near sighted for the future Just hoping to enjoy I've made it my goal I'm learning to disappear. To vanish without a trace. What would that do to you, my dear? Get me out of my head Get me out. I've made it my goal. I've felt what I am worth, I am not okay
Weight 04:27
The wind against the pain. I'll hold my breath to listen in. Am I strong enough to support that weight? Can I brush away the pain? It's five more years I'll feel this way. I'm not strong enough to support this game we play. Like a canary trapped inside this cave Saving grace for a purpose. I'm in my place. I know now what it takes to be someone Just hold your tongue and do as you're told Die cast my insides to your mold Fill me up as if I wasn't full. I was never whole.
Mess 04:22
Turn over every stone. I'm finding nothing in return. Oh what a beautiful mess I've grown. Oh what a barren life I've known I'm sinking I’m sinking down I'm stranded, standing on this earth. I'll salvage everything I'm worth. I've lost it. I've been wasting time. God damn, I just hate to be alive. At least for tonight. You said you'd be there for the outcome. I am shallow. Almost transparent. Where were you when everything I could see was so barren and incomplete? You've told me once, don't tell me twice. Just tell me, where were you then?


released November 22, 2017

Recorded and Mixed by Seth Henderson and Sam Henderson at ABG Studios.


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